tbh if my car wasn’t so old I’d probably try to take a mini road trip outside the state for a day bc I do not want to be here at all
Anonymous asked: You look great! Hope you are doing well!
Thank you! Sorry, I just deleted the port cause I was trying to get it on my new blog which @thisthatmurdersme !
okay so - I can’t get into my tumblr account on my computer because of an old email address I can’t access so I’m starting a new account under @thisthatmurdersme
so yeah, only will be keeping this blog for references and also tumblr staff sucks
okay so - I can’t get into my tumblr account on my computer because of an old email address I can’t access so I’m starting a new account under @thisthatmurdersme
so yeah, only will be keeping this blog for references and also tumblr staff sucks
“all that matters is that u tried ur best”
me: *instantly flashes back to every moment i procrastinated and wasted*
me: ha hah haahah…… ….. yeah…….. my best……. that is the thing i totally did
someone said they cared about me, that I seemed like someone who needed someone to care and I said don’t and they asked why.
I don’t know why, I’ve just been saying that for years and can’t tell if it’s because I want them to reaffirm that they care, or know that I’m going to drag them through hell with constant disappointment and abandonment. I hate how I cling to people but if they cling back I instantly know I’m going to end up bailing. I hate that I can’t tell when my feelings are real, or I’m just pretending so they’ll stay longer. I hate how many people I hurt over and over and I know I should leave people alone but being alone hurts and what the fuck is wrong with me that I am this fucking destructive